in time I'll be fine

dammit.shit.

I hate having lunch/dinner with friends and/or family.

I HATE IT.

no one knows about my eating disorder...no one knows.

What did I eat today....dammit.

Lunch. messed everything up. everything.

I feel disgusting.

I look even more disgusting.....

and on top of that

he wrote me.

now......?

you leaving is the reason I went even more insane.

you leaving is the reason I went out of control.

you leaving...is why I don't eat.

don't you get it?

u disappear...without saying a word...

and....now?

how many months later.....out of the blue.

you write me like nothings happened.

Like I never hurt.Like I don't even bleed......

i still haven't decided what to or if to write back.

I'm a stupid women....

for loving him.

Ice coffee.

that's it for today.

Ice coffee.