control

I need to lose weight.

Lose it all.

make me nothing.

make me empty.

Id rather die thin and perfect...

than live feeling miserable and ugly.

I'm doing good so far today.

didn't eat much at all....drank lots of tea.

tea tea tea.....

I'm back to square one.

I cried myself to sleep thinking of you.

Trying to get over you.

Wondering why you left.

Hoping and praying that you were healthy and happy.

I put a period to the sentence.

and now you're back.

Ive hit the spiral....

and I feel like I'm losing control.

Now you're back on my mind.

I'm waiting again....

I hate how much I love you.

I hate that I met you.

it hurts,

that in the end, it will all amount to nothing.

NOTHING.

and still....

I wait.

stupid.stupid and ugly.

now off for some ice coffee.

thin

thin...

gotta be thin