home sweet home

i miss my home.

my home sweet home.

thousands and thousands of miles away....

i was born there

i felt loved there

i loved every minute of my life there

i was full of joy.

i miss my home.

i miss me.

countdown

I will count

count till you drop.

One day

I'll make you see

One day

I'll make you cry.

LOVE

Love will empower you

it will embrace you

hold you

make everything right.

Love will light your soul

give you hope

fill you with joy.

Love will torture you

hurt you

leave you there to burn

Love will take away your sanity

fill you with grief...

and shatter you with lies.

LOVE.

IS.

BLIND.

struggle

time will heal.

but it hurts so bad.

no one will love you as much as I.

IMPOSSIBLE.

went to the gym today.

I was actually able to go non-stop.

that felt good.actually felt good.

I will yell and scream.

all the memories.

it feels like an open wound.

THIN.

I NEED TO BE THIN.

THINTHINTHIN

or else.....

what goes around...

in the end someone always wins the fight.

someone will give in.

someone will be knocked out.

and someone will win.

what am i fighting for...?

I look in the mirror and see blank.

I hope...

the things that remind me of you

remind you of me....

if you ever even think of me.

In the end is when I'll know what I was fighting for

whether I win or lose....

Until then

I have to keep going...

in my blanket

I went to bed so early...too early.

Curled up in my blanket, listening to the rain.

I wish I can see you

I wish I can hold you

I wish I can hear your voice

I love my blanket...so warm.

Had some cherries and blueberries today.

Couldn't find any good blackberries...

100lbs.

my magic number.

maybe then....

I'll be thin enough to fit in your mind.

to the bones

i cant stop thinking about you